My partner recently passed away.

Grief is an awkward dance.  Today I feel really sad. 
The saddness feels clear and present. 
I feel it's depth and realness. 

After passing through many phases 
including initial joy relief and wonderment, 
touching into the depth of grief where I felt as if i would die of a broken heart, 
then on into exhaustion, physical illness 
and incredible anger and resistance that have been 
hanging around and stagnating 
these past few weeks.
It is somewhat a relief to 
come into 
the purity of grief 
today.

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